When I Met You

     Guards up! – Here we go again. Same old…same old me. I’m building new walls around my heart, but this time no more bricks—all Concrete.

     Have you experienced having sleepless nights, tossing and turning in bed, Butterflies tickling your stomach, thoughts of someone who weakens your soul and makes you melt just that? In my case, for the nth time, I do! But what makes it different this time? It’s the thought that I’ve seen him before, not in my dreams or in our past lives (but somewhere in Manila). How I’m suddenly aware of my own heart beat when I heard him utter my name. How the moment froze and everything…everyone was in slow mo, literally. How my sight narrowed where all I could see was the man standing in front of me. – Here goes my heart again!

     If you were to ask me if I like the feeling…YES! I really like or should I say love the feeling it brings, but am I to risk my heart to be hurt again on this what you so called one-sided-kind-of –love? That’s one of the reasons why I keep on holding back. I’m afraid of being hurt again, without them knowing that they are the reason of my tears. I’m afraid of wasting my time again just staring from afar and letting those words of love slip away…I don’t want to rely on destiny anymore. God brought me where I should be but all the answers are in my hands…

     I’ve been waiting for the right man to come and I want to believe that I just met him, that it’s all a matter of time…but, but, but… I want to spare my heart from the pain and my eyes from all the tears. How I wish he also felt the same way I do the time I met him. I want it all to be real this time. If I’m going to let myself make believe, I’ll be just letting him in in my system. If he only felt it…I’ll let myself fall ‘cause I know there’s someone to catch me before I hit the ground.

Not until then, I’ll secure a great wall before my heart.

P.S. I was enchanted to meet you! <3

About the Author:

Raquel Rodriguez a.k.a. Destiny studied BSN at Our Lady of Fatima University. She is currently working as an accounting staff at Borland Development Corporation. She’s kind of timid but always wants to explore. She believes that she was made up of sugar, spice and a dash of weirdness. A dream chaser, a volunteer, a pastry chef wannabe and a little bit of this and that. She writes her heart out and shares the moments of her deep thoughts and the aches of her silence.